Hey! I know I don’t have many people following my blog. I think I have about 10 or 11. BUT! I’m working on my very first book! Yay!! The book is called ‘POD 10’.
The book is about a young Captain named Quinn who faces the hardships of loss, isolation, persecution, and overall a very sh*tty few weeks.
I’m just very excited and I thought I’d share it with you guys!
If you have ANY tips, PLEASE PLEASE LET ME KNOOOOW! Thank you!!!!
When I was young, I used to have a deep love for the color pink. I had it everywhere. Dolls, bed sheets, walls, paintings, tables, chairs, clothes and even my hair at one point. I also had a pink chicken! I loved it, it made me feel happy.
I was about 10 when I started seeing things differently. I always saw life “through pink colored lenses” as my mom use to (and still does) say. But, life hit hard. And it hit in the lowest way possible. I was in school, some kids came over and well, the rest is history.
My brother wanted to play a game, the rest is history.
Life was never the same since then. I felt broken, useless. Unimportant. I was convinced that they had broken me. I didn’t speak about it, not even to my family. I thought they’d think I was weak. Slowly the pink started to vanish.
Replaced by a color I fell in love with. Black. It was dark, cold and comforting. Yet, it reminded me of the reason it was here. Of why I hid within it. Of why I liked it. It hid what happened. It hid my shame, my scars, my pain.
Now I had black curtains, black bed sheets, black clothes, black hats, black everything. I complete got rid of the color pink. Funny thing is, I didn’t even notice. It was such sublet shift. My family seemed to notice, yet they didn’t seem to care.
I fell into a deep depression, I stayed in my room more. I didn’t talk as much, I was upset all the time. I didn’t know what to do.
I did things I regret.
Time goes by, a long long time. A long time of confusion, a long time of hurt. I escaped into reading and writing. Wrote away with heavy words, words that to this day still echo in my mind.
‘…mistake.’
‘…hate.’
‘…die.’
But, I guess something snapped within me. Something that said that enough was enough. I didn’t want to live like this. So, I focused on writing more positive things. Worlds that I created within my mind. They seemed so real to me. Tiny people with pink skin and big green eyes. Some people might think it was a nightmare! But it was home, for me.
Slowly, piece by piece I added more and more touches of pink. It spread all around, almost over night. Everything was calm. Everything was nice. But then I realized that it made me… different. Uncaring towards others emotions.
“Just be happy?” I said, forgetting what I once went through. Shoving it to the back of my mind. I wanted to forget, but trying to forget hardships and sadness erased an important part of me.
The part that understood. The part that said,
“Hey. I get it. Take your time… I know what it feels like.” I was so high on happiness that I started thinking sadness didn’t have a purpose or that people should just ‘force’ themselves to be happy.
I’m 17 now. I’ll be 18 in a few months. My room has splashes of black and pink, mostly pink. But it’s still there. I now know that I can’t fix the past and nor can I force myself to forget it. My life doesn’t have to be all black, but it can’t be all pink either. So I have both. And I couldn’t ask for more.
‘Remembering‘ hurts, but it still teaches and strengthens the mind, body and soul.
Hey guys! Gueeessss what!?
I got a ko-fi! Yay!! This is so exciting!!
(If you are wondering, I mostly made this ko-fi in hopes of reaching more people! Yay!) Consider following me! 🍒🌸☺
(If you are easily trigger DO NOT read.)
it told me
that it would be funny
if i were to hang from the roof
like “a pretty christmas tree, in a winters night”
that it would be so funny
to see me choke on tears
to see my face contort in fear
to see my cheeks drain with cheer
it told me
“its better this way.”
There I was,
lone in the heart of the city.
Yet, it did not beat,
it did not thump.
It was silent,
it’s inhabitants quiet.
Mumbling words,
conversing with eyes.
They looked,
upon storefronts,
wanting,
needy.
Greedy looks,
yet no cheers or screams were shared.
I,
with great discomfort,
did not speak either.
For if no one else was speaking,
why should I?
I said, did,
and fled.
What needed confessing,
what needed realizing,
what needed quitting,
no matter how dangerous it was.
I lied.
My eyes rained,
roaring tsunamis on the coasts of my cheeks.
I DROWNED in its waters.
I told you,
with gentle reminder and thought
that I cherished you,
that I needed you!
But I lied.
To your existence,
to your spirit,
to your senses.
Based on my own judgment,
I took a step towards YOUR wrong,
out of my own conformity.
Not to wound,
like you’ve done to I.
Not to scar,
like you’ve done to I.
But to free,
to free my mind,
my core,
my energy!
…
Thoughts, you have caged me.
…
Thoughts, you have hurt me.
No matter your truth.
My reality was set,
after what you did.
And I know,
oh I know.
That you’ve done far worse than I.
For she,
my passion,
my excitement,
has jumped off the verge.
YOU,
YOU killed her!
…
And her body,
her remains and memories,
lay within me.
Long gone,
with low chance of returning.
Reach up to the blue sky above,
gently pull it apart.
Like a curtain,
and witness what lays inside.
Secrets of the universe,
miles and miles of star written scrolls.
Writings of things of old,
things yet to happen.
The sky sees,
the sky listens.
The starts write,
they write the wishes you place upon them.
All those wishes, all those dreams.
The sky it envelops you,
in its vast blanket of blue.
To show,
to show you, that it’s there.
Hey ya’ll! Cherry here. This is a short story I wrote for this weeks Reedsy Prompts Competition. Now, I’m 17. And I think it’s really unfair that I’m not able to join the competition. But, heck it. I made something ANYWAY.
“Write a story about someone returning to their craft after a long hiatus.” (This is the prompt I chose.)
The smell of dust and must tickled my nose. I flipped the light, almost weightless pages gently between my fingers. Book in hand, I reminisced of my past, a slight smirk forming on my lips. The clickety-clack of the keys as I worked my way through letters and words echoed in the back of my mind. Creating worlds, myths and legends. Crafting my own magic.
What a wonderful feeling, that of remembering fond memories; sitting for hours at a time, not caring about what was happening around me or who had gotten into trouble. It was freedom, it was escape. It made me doubt having left in the first place. What was my reason?
I shuffled over to the bookshelf, trailing my fingers across book spines as I walked past them. It was comforting, the feeling of leather brushing my fingertips. This feels like home… no, that wasn’t quite right… I made it home. I took a deep, hearty breath and made my way over to my desk. It was exactly the way I left it, undisturbed and untouched for years and years. I knocked on the oak wood, feeling its heartbeat wake.
*thump, thump, thump*
It echoed slightly throughout the wood, waking from its slumber. I turned and looked down at my old chair. Nothing special to most, just an old chair. But to me, this was my treasure. All the billions of ideas that I had sitting in this chair. I sat, looking down at its chest. How I’d missed this feeling. It’s dark wood was dressed with spots and small blotches of black ink. I reached for my pen, a gorgeous fountain pen, with an intricate design. A golden tip, a body in polished brown. Engraved with the words, ‘Just Write’. Its end was a bit bruised and weak, due to the times I’ve tapped it against the desk. In one quick, smooth motion, my fingers found their places along the body of the pen. They curled comfortably around, as if they have rehearsed this thousands of times. It was cold. A familiar feeling came back to me.
I was given the choice to become who I am. I chose to write. To write for others, for myself. To share vivid worlds and eras, there’s no limit to what I could write. The power one has when holding a pen is astounding. However, as some have yet to notice, it does not matter what pen you have, what surface you write on, or the place you put your work. The power comes from the writer themselves. You sit, wherever, with whatever. Pen and paper, pencil and notebook, keyboard and monitor.
We all have the power to create and share, to share and create. It is the most universal ability, yet few know of the gift they have. I turned to this little drawer to my right. I placed my finger upon the cold handle and gently pulled it open. Dust sprinkled the air, and I sneezed. Inside was a small book, with a black colored spine and a blue face (and back). I had forgotten to take it with me before I left. Dust coated the spine and the face. I returned the pen to its stand, and picked up the book. I turned its pages, reading the contents. It was filled to the brim with my ideas. Books, poems, stories, things I wanted to share to the world! I wrote my heart out with these words. Like blood, they seemed to drip down its pages to the carpeted floor. I closed the book, held it close to my chest, and sighed.
“I missed you…” Talking to my empty ideas. Great ideas, but empty. I didn’t write them, no. I thought they weren’t good enough. They stayed dormant in an unknowing rest. But, they were mine. I spoke to the words floating around my head. This craving, this impulse to piece the words together, it soothed me.
But everything ends eventually, no matter if it’s good or bad. The words gently fluttered down to the ground. I placed the book on the desk and looked around the room, slowly turning in my chair. Then I saw myself, standing right there in front of me, smiling. Smiling down at my very first written words. I sat up and looked at them apologetically. We sat still, locking gazes.
“Hi…” I spoke, hesitantly.
“Hey…” My reflection responded. They stepped forward. “You’re back.”
“I’m back.” I said. All I could do was repeat the words. I had already said everything that needed to be said.
“Did it work…? Are you better now…?” They asked, with a curious tone. Did what work? What were they talking about? My leave…? The need to just let go of the reins for a little while?
“I’m back here, so what do you think..?” I sunk back in my chair before my reflection began to pace around the room. They looked translucent, ghost-like. Were they my motivation?
“You are back, yes. But are you back?” They replied, putting emphasis on the second “back”. I turned my chair around, following my reflection.
“I guess? I feel… yes… I think I’m back. I missed you… I missed it. The words, the pages, I missed it all.” They stopped walking. We made eye contact again.
“Good. Welcome home.” They walked back towards the chair. I turned the chair to face them and they turned their back to me, laying their fingers on top of mine. Their fingers passed through my fingers and sat in the exact position mine was. I sat still, stunned. They sat, feet matching my feet, legs matching my legs, arms matching my arms. It was as if we merged together. I took a deep breath, and exhaled slowly. A goosebump-like tingle spread throughout my body.
“I’m home.” I smiled to myself, and to the words that appeared around my head. I was back. Better than ever and ready to spill my ideas once more. I turned and faced the desk once more, placing my hands on my little blue book. I was ready again, ready for it all.
plum pink lips
ripe for the picking.
curves, curves
i’d have to slow to turn.
driving down her hills, mounds of love.
soft, gentle skin
honey sweet.
high in the sky, her hair
covers the midnight sky.
I want to thank https://jnsupermoms.com for nominatign me! I wasn’t sure what to do but I looked it up and I got very excited! Yay!!!
For those of you that might not what the ‘Sunshine Blogger Award’ is:
The Sunshine Blogger Award is given to bloggers who inspire positiveness and creativity in the blogging community.
The Rules are:
1. Thank the blogger who nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
2. List the rules.
3. Display the Sunshine Blogger Award Logo in your blog post.
4. Answer all 11 Questions asked of you by the blogger.
5. Nominate up to 11 New Bloggers to receive the Award and notify them.
6. Create 11 New Questions for your nominees.
Rants Of A Foul Mouthed Mom questions were:
1. How long have you wrote?
I’ve been writing for ever since I can remember. 9 is when I wrote my very first “piece”, I’ve loved it ever since.
2. Do you have any books out?
I do not, but that’s going to change! I’m remaining optimistic!😅
3. What is your day job?
I work as a translator in my father’s building company. (sorta)
4. Fruit of veggies?
Fruit, I prefer bananas over anything, ANY day.
5. What made your blog succesful?
I wouldn’t call my blog successful, exactly. It’s just there, getting a few views! I just really hope those people are enjoying what I write! Haha!
6. Any tips for newcomers?
Don’t give up. And interact, interact, INTERACT! I cannot stress that enough. Make friends, have fun! Write with passion!
7. Favorite car?
Volkswagen Hippy Van!
8. Do you swear as much as me?
I don’t think anyone has the capability to swear as much as you, and that’s a compliment!😂
9. Your fave blog post?
Of my own? Most likely ‘Anxious’, sharing some of my experiences with Anxiety to people who don’t know what it feels like, really brings awareness to the issue.
10. Where would you rather live by ocean or mountins?
Mountains! I adore the ocean but it can really distract me from my work, haha!
11. I can’t think of another so just pick some random sh*t about you.
Fun fact about me, I’m always writing. Even if I don’t have my computer or a pencil and paper. I’m always writing in my head, imagining different things about people I see on the street.
My 11 questions:
My Nominees:
mjf jeeshan Laura Schmidt Hannah Savannah Worman Joy The Happy Mommie ! Alexis Watts Word Hunter Dr. Perry FORGOTTENMEADOWS
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